Hello There,
There was a time when I wanted to be a mom more than anything.
I said it. I felt it. I believed it. I longed for it.
And then I had my first miscarriage. And another. And another after that.
My journey to motherhood had many unexpected twists and turns.
It began to seem like a dream that would never happen.
I noticed that every time I thought "I want to be a mom," or someone asked when we were going to have a child, I suffered. I kept anchored in loss and what life wasn't giving me, instead of appreciating what life was offering.
So I began to let it go through inquiry, questioning beliefs and assumptions, and started shifting my awareness to living versus obsessing on when or how I was going to be a mother.
As I began to surrender to life, it cracked me open, connecting to a deeper gratitude for life itself.
It's funny how life works.
We now have our daughter. I couldn't have written this script of life.
Through grit, guidance, and grace our chosen family came together in such a uniquely beautiful way. Year after year of IVF treatments and multiple attempts, our rainbow baby was born through a Divine gift of love and friendship that unfolded in ways beyond my understanding.
Our family grew and expanded.
Our daughter has been raised in love. Mary, who carried and birthed our daughter, is now her adoptive second mother and my beloved friend.
Life is not without its challenges. Surrender continues to school me every day of my life. It has been my experience that as we lessen the grip of the illusion of control, and allow life's natural flow and rhythm to take over, we are shown kinder more beautiful ways to be.
Tony and I talk more about our chosen family in the Unplanned Podcast this week: about surrender, about seasons of life, about love, and about how meaning can evolve when we loosen our grip on the story we were holding.
If you're in a place where life hasn't unfolded the way you expected, this may offer you possibility.
I invite you to listen below.
THIS WEEK’S INQUIRY
Take a moment this week and reflect on these questions, open and honestly:
Where in my life am I still holding tightly?
What has that attachment been costing me?
If I loosened my grip just a little, what might happen?
What meaning is already present in my life today?
Join us at our Time to Rise Summit, see below for details.
Love,
Sage Robbins 🪷
